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I've been at various levels of smile like a spectrum, just recently I was smiling so damn much I couldn't stop and felt like a joker-dancing victim as I was going to sleep

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It's an epidemic actually

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You got me guilty as charged 😔

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Love me some grim fandango, I actually have the old cd roms of it and the remastered version. Quite like this retrospective

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I just finished chapter 5 and I see this, amazing timing add me to the list.

I've thus far really liked this book, I started reading it only monday would have started sooner but barely got it from my library on Sunday.

Chapter 5 is on my mind rn now and I been thinking of the tropes part of how much colonial forces have become cops in our heads and it brought me back to what I remember on fanon. The tightropes the colonized have to walk Everytime they even speak is an exhausting process. This book has been a great deal putting into words a lot of things I've been thinking about.

Keeping it up for 2 weeks is a good shout, I'll probably finish this book before then but a reread and reposting of thoughts can't hurt so thanks for making this group

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I've caught myself thinking about the human comment too tbh part of me has been reworking the term to not be speciesist but yeah I think this is why it stuck with me so much and why the word irked me in a way I couldn't describe. Real on the fanon part

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I learned of this from fort bragg cartel book, just so many arms just happen to end up in their hands a real mystery there columbo-donk

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I mean this has some of that it's has a lot about the night raids but a lot of it is real good. Connections between drugs, guns and the underworld. Something similar was this cuban mafia book the corporation and while the authors can't flat out state shit you piece together the connections. Operation Condor is prob an easy thing to people you in the right direction

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Gonna suck losing so many friends but I've sullen and listless as if late so I doubt anyone's gonna miss me. Guess element is always there too

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All my friends have paired up /moved in anyway not in the same house but I doubt they're gonna be lonely or not be able to talk to their most talked to discord mates

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The threat of ICE was always the stick these employers had to break up labor or scare immigrants from wanting more now that it's affecting bottom line oh now how can cheeto-man do this. May these industries go bankrupt

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Not a Superbowl ad because I don't watch the Superbowl but I did get one where a family is asking chatgpt medical questions about cancer. That shit is desperate like oh then ask your doctor but let's be real without health care most people just googling shit

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This part always hit me when I think back on to this game, feeling very the-deserter it baffles me how anyone could come out of this game as anything but leftist

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My copy of Perfect Victims and the politics of appeal by Mohammed El-Kurd finally came in. Got through chapter 1 the snipers hands are clean of blood. Books shorter than I thought but I'm probably gonna reread it in a week or so before I give it back. It's heavy but glad to read it all the same

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Yeah reminds me arguments I've had with liberals glad it's put more in words better than I can. White liberals just don't get it, having to be perfect otherwise violence against you is never questioned is exhausting and just a means to protect a system that's against your very existence. It's something I struggle with with my own self worth at times, if I get shot by a cop or whisked away by ice the fact I haven't done anything amazing with my life means I'll just be forgotten.

Bringing up a lot of emotions rn, normally this be a book I'd finish in a day but gonna stop reading for today and journal some, weather isn't helping feeling introspective af

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Honestly the book is both hard to read but I keep wanting to, feeling drained but I can power through

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I actually saw it before because of the reading group actually it's only this week that it made it to my library and I've been on it reading when I can

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Hell yeah I'll try to join it rn on chapter 5 so I'll look if I need to catch up or not. It's such a beautifully written book pain and all

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My mom all like don't be selling plasma that's giving your life away and like I can't fucking lie at all so she knows cri hits me "what goes around comes around" she used to do work in bars to help her parents out when she was my age with her own dad telling her to stop. I know hers was more dangerous but fuck man I just wanna help and I keep sending applications out and no one's hiring.

I've gotten used to the physical pain and managed the strain but I feel like I'm disappointing her.

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Was feeling low but getting it out in text has helped me, I did tell her she did it for love of her family and I'm doing the same. One day things will change, my parents feel that they couldn't give me a better life and I feel I can't do the same for them yet. I got hope still

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Beans are always good, bean effect states that the beans you had last night help you the next day. All this is aculminating

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Some of my training on HVAC I've dipped into other specialties like fridge repair. It's nice to know all the components and I do feel a bit smug that regular fixers have no means to a leak issue, at most they can get a new one but I know what to do. Now if it makes sense to do it is another thing

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Out of my element and not offered is microwave repair, I do want this ngl but out of everything electrical I know I know this can get me killed 😔

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I think an alternative if I can't find work would be picking up fridges fixing them and selling them off. It can be as simple as replacing a defrost timer or cleaning some coils idk not to mention I'll do this shit under the table fuck paying taxes and reporting income

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Season 4 of breaking bad feels like the peak of the series imo they had 2 no-copyright games in it sega and sonic all star racing and 06. I really don't think they can top that so if I drop it now I got all I wanted out of it

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I've done my taxes once in my life and it was to claim the covid bucks a few years back, I'm never doing them again

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And I waste government money, I've gotten every covid shot just because I could on medicaid fuck the government

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It may be Friday the 13th but my goofy smile and blissed out state has deflected and bad vibes that have came my way

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Good catch there, that earned you a gold star ⭐

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What do you think turned the meth blue this whole time think-about-it

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I got these big bags of kale on sale (rhyming) and I'm making dinner just kale topped with beans, chili and bit of guacamole. Going forward this is gonna be my dinner every night if I'm not doing popcorn dinner. Honestly feeling great, I got my protein and so much leafy greens in me.

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My walking hours have gone down this week but rn before the library opens I can do 2 hours then 1 when the library closes I can do at least another hour and then maybe bit more. Trying to get 6 hours a week but bleh. Monday was a pure reading day and Tuesday I could have got some in

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Little park I'm at has a work out place, prob gonna eat shit jumping over some things but all the kids are in school rn and adults at work so at least no one will know

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Didn't eat shit, but it's a 10 inch height pole has got me doubting myself

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Ate a lot of kale, beans and soy meat tonight for dinner and I felt amazing, the world felt brighter colors sharper and I reached a zen state few can ever hope of achieving trump-enlightened

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My brain thinks it's gold so I'll keep up the kayfabe

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"There's more to life than winning petty arguments online" said by someone who's never owned the libs kubrick-stare

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That one character who's all "you know what maybe this thing that's extrajudicially killing people isn't so bad, maybe it's what is really needed to makes things better" and they mean we should purge undesirables that don't confirm to the hegemony. They're also usually cops and the like so it goes without saying acab. I know it sounds like I'm talking about death note but I found another series called hellbound and just thought catgirl-disgust like the justice system isn't violent enough for some of us us-foreign-policy

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Mood I don't understand fully the computer part but mood

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I successfully can home after a long day of library/park and did not spend my time arguing with some nobody.

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Yeah I get what you mean now izutsumi-idea

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You hit them with the mega thread answer to what ever puzzle they put up, that's how I used to get DMs when I used to post puzzles/riddles. Sometimes I'd include people who just ask me to put their names up as they solved it. Kinda miss that ngl it's why we have the DM Wmill on chapo comm and why I still get ban override requests from time to time.

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My dad's upset that he's gonna have to brush his teeth more and floss, his dentist isn't happy with him. He's also gonna have to give up soda and coffee which soda he's stopped but coffee was his go to. Gonna be a rough weeks for him to adjust

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Plasma donation place has new bandages and pokey things, did not care for them at least cobans still the same

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Feels like it's obvious to people who do it often but like 70% of exercise is just getting the right form down, was doing some calisthenics and like just figuring out what my body should have been doing was the majority of the challenge