Ich habe heute mal die kleine Kamera-Schublade aufgemacht. Da liegen sie. Die Olympus OM-D E-M1 Mark II und die Kiev 60. Sie sind bereit, wenn ich wieder bereit bin. Habe die Schublade wieder zu gemacht.
Man sieht eine geöffnete Schublade. Darin befindet sich eine digitale Olympus-Kamera wie auch eine analoge Mittelformat-Kamera vom Typ Kiev 60. Das Foto ist in Schwarzweiß.
I have a pulmonologist follow-up appointment 4 pneumonia today @ 10:00 AM. I’m trying to cover the cost of the visit + transportation. I need approximately $100 or less.. Pls pls🙏🫂
If anyone is able to assist or #boost this post so it reaches more people, I would be deeply grateful.
Thank you for taking time 2 read & for any kindness you’re able to extend.🫱🏻🫲🏽💜
@sharifgaza is verified by Molly Shah on #bluesky. He's not yet verified by #GazaVerified. I hope he will be soon. Sharif is a Palestinian #refugee in Egypt with no income.
Give my hug to ur adorable furpals (🐶doggo's & the other's too! A very big warm huggies from Me♡ & Jury🫂) PS: Do me a favor pls🥺Boost this post for visibility pls Hoping for kind support towards getting Dietary Food & Kibbles 4 my cat jury this week.
two-panel cartoon showing the bond between a person and cats. The top panel shows a person hugging one grey cat with the text "Sometimes you save them.". The bottom panel shows the same person looking stressed with two cats (one grey, one tan) sitting near them, with the text "Sometimes they save you.".
I have an idea that I think could change the world, and I'm looking for people who are passionate about ethical politics and governance, and direct activism, to help me flesh it out.
It involves secure software development, certification and attestation, proof of presence, consensus, and trust-based distribution of rewards.
My goal is to enable communities and causes to organize compensation for those who want to participate in a strike but cannot afford the loss of income.
If this sounds interesting to you, and you think you might have knowledge, experience, or skills that can help, please drop me a reply or DM.
if you're a follower, sorry that I keep doing this, but it's one of the only ways I have of letting my feelings out. I'm just.... lost.
why do I have to be doomed to live with my mom... she knows exactly how to degrade me mentally and deeply affect me, and she uses it against me whenever she wants, whenever it's convenient...
she keeps insulting me and trying to hurt my feelings.
I cannot trust her anymore.
I cannot trust my own mom.
the person responsible for bringing me into this forsaken world doesn't want the responsibility of having to help me and be a good parent to their children.
all she knows to do is to martyrise herself. she "always did everything she could.". she "always did her best.".
lies. all lies.
and deep down she knows it. but her ego is too massive to even get that bit deep with her own emotions and face them.
I cannot keep living here, but I have literally no other option. I don't feel mentally capable of working a normal job, at all. what am I supposed to do with my life anymore?
what has my life come to? how did I end up like this? I turned 29 almost not even a week ago, and my life has been rewound back to the same way it was 5 years ago. all the years spent building a relationship, a future, everything is just gone. everything I depended on to be able to live minimally happy. gone. in a couple of text messages.
I'm so tired of giving 200% of the effort I can muster, EVERY. SINGLE. DAY.
just to make a little bit of progress and achieve something tiny in my life, like finally brushing my teeth after a week, or actually not forgetting to take my meds on time, or even the simple fact THAT I'M STILL MANAGING TO STAY ALIVE AND NOT END IT ALL, despite all the suffering I endure every single day. all of those things and basically EVERYTHING in my life is EXTREMELY difficult for me to do. just for basically everyone actually in my life in any matter (my family, and one friend, that's all my social interaction irl) to think that I'm simply lazy, or that I just don't want to work, etc., or like everyone in my family says now, that I need to be fucking HOSPITALIZED? because I'm deeply depressed??
what I need is to simply be happy. minimally happy. I need support. I need help. I will never be happy while living here.
the 3 months I lived in mainland Portugal were the best months of my life. I can't remember being any happier than that, I don't think I ever was.
and now I'm stuck on these fucking islands again.
no accessibility to anything at all in the slightest. I can't go anywhere or do anything without a car, which I can't afford to get. I rely on my freaking 75 YEAR OLD GRANDPA to drive me to the supermarket and to the pharmacy when I need it.
and when I can muster enough strength, enough force of will to be alive, and I overcome ONE step of being closer to being better......
....life ALWAYS just comes and punches me in the face, kicks me in the gut, and sets me back more than TEN steps.
it's a vicious cycle. and I can't seem to break out of it.
I need help. I don't know what to do anymore.
I don't know how long I can endure living like this. I can't do this anymore. I'm so tired. some days ago I woke up and instantly started crying because I realized... "I have to go through all of this.... one more day... again..." and I really broke down crying.
I'm so desperate... why does the world have to be like this??? why would fucking money solve all of my problems???? why is it always about fucking money..... the entire world.... all of our lives.... are dictated by money....
and I can't fucking earn almost any at all for myself monthly.
would it be realistic/correct to try to get mutual aid or start a crowdfunding campaign, or anything of the sort, just so I could MAYBE, just maybe, start saving some money? I don't know, I'm lost. I don't know what to do anymore.
what the hell am I supposed to do with a life like this? I'm reaching a breaking point, I can't withstand this anymore.
can someone please help me? guide me? anything? I'm feeling so lost....
EDIT (8th Feb): I'm extremely grateful for the donations that totaled 191.10€.
but at the same time I'm completely devastated, because I couldn't manage to save basically any of it. I have around 90€ on my bank account right now. 1 visit to the pharmacy, it turns into around 75€. one visit to the supermarket, it turns into at least 55€......
how am I supposed to save any money whatsoever???? I can't..... I'll forever be stuck in this hellhole island. forever unhappy. forever waking up and crying my eyes out.
I'm in an extremely dire situation right now, and my life is at at all time low, and I unfortunately need to ask for help. please boost this post if you see it. please.
to start, for context, I'm from Portugal, but not from the mainland. I'm from the Azores, I live in 1 out of 9 islands in this tourist attraction hellhole in the middle of the Atlantic ocean.
I lived for 3-4 months on mainland Portugal, and they were the happiest times of my entire life.
but then I got broken up with, through text messages. my best friend, the only person I had that supported me 100% for almost 6 years, disappeared from my life, and I had to move back to my abusive mom's house, after not living with parents for over 8 years of my life.
my mom is extremely mentally abusive to me. I don't want to go into further details because it's very traumatic to even think about it for me. it's like she's 2 different people. you can check the post this is a reply to for more stuff on how she makes me feel.
I'm unemployed, I've basically always been. all the jobs I tried (3 of them) I had to quit, because it fills me with a terror, a dread, a terrible feeling I can't even explain. I'm constantly extremely afraid of getting scolded for any mistake I might make, and then not be able to stop myself from breaking down crying.
I turned 29 years old not even a month ago, and I can't work. I still didn't start HRT because bureaucracy and bs. I live in a place full of extremely close minded people. I feel miserable. I need to buy and make my own food a lot of the time, and I can't even freaking do it.
my only income is through Prolific, which is an extremely unstable way of getting an income. (I can get lucky and get 100€ in one month, but I can also get under 5€ in one month)
on top of all that, I suffer a lot from a lot of depression and anxiety every single day, to a point where I cannot bring myself to do something that should be simple, like having a normal sleep schedule, or being able to shower when I should, etc.
those are the only things I have diagnosed and take medication for. I heavily suspect that I have some form of ADHD, and I'm certainly above the average on the autism spectrum, but all my tries to get any diagnosis of that were met with replies like my psychiatrist instantly looking up at me, and saying "you don't have autism for sure, and I really think ADHD is very very unlikely for you".
I'm asking for any donation you can make whatsoever, as even something like 5€ make a huge difference in my life, and is the difference from being able to buy something to eat in a day I'd really need it, or not.
my ultimate goal is to save up money to get the hell out of here. or at least enough to have my own apartment or something, but even here, the housing crisis is awful. and the problem with trying to save money is that I can never end up saving anything in the long run... I NEVER SPEND MONEY ON UNNECESSARY STUFF, and I always end up running out of money completely and having to go into any savings I try to have.
if I had at least ~400€ a month (way less than minimum wage) I'd be able to live way more comfortably, and probably be able to save some money, so that's my goal for now. every month I need to spend around 100€ on medication, 200€, but probably more, on food alone, 5€ for phone provider, and probably way more than 100€ on other groceries and stuff I need to buy sometimes. I even have to buy stuff like my own water, or milk, or clothes detergent for me to be able to wash my own clothes separately, because of how abusive my mom can be and use everything she does for you against you.
again, if you want more details of how bad my situation is, you can check the post this is a reply to.
PayPal is unfortunately the only online thing I can receive money through, but if you prefer, I can share my IBAN on DMs for a bank transfer. (or MBWAY, if you're somehow from portugal) https://paypal.me/justyellow7
thank you so much, from the bottom of my heart, for even reading and/or boosting this post, if that's all you can do.
Many people ask, why #Jabber a.k.a. #XMPP is technically successul (used by Whatsapp, Zoom, Grindr, Fortnite, Google FCM, and many more), but is still not the federated instant messaging for the people.
Now, it's not about missing features, technical shortcomings, or bad UX. No, the reason simply is: Jabber does not have a cute #mascot!
As the traditional icon for Jabber is the #lightbulb 💡, I wonder, if an animal performing #bioluminescence would fit?
hey fediverse! it's daph re-introducing!
i'll soon be migrating from @daph and
@daph
i'm that trans/nonbiney cow thing from NL. i do a bit of (ui/ux) design and webdev.
lately i've been playing a lot of pokemon tcg, and learning pixelart and game dev!
i am running my own instance now so a rewoot/boost would help lots for federation!
"if I'm this mentally bad,"
to the point that I can't do "the minimum a person should do", like being able to maintain my hygiene more than once or twice a week, for example;
that the ONLY solution is to be admitted into some kind of mental rehabilitation clinic.
I've told them multiple times I think that would just destroy my life, because those places tend to be extremely strict and "follow the rules or else", and I KNOW FOR A FACT that wouldn't work out well for this.......
when they answer that, systematically, it makes me feel that, because they don't know what do to or how to approach this, they're just discarding me off to somewhere else. so I'm no longer their problem.
and I'm sure I have a lot of undiagnosed mental issues.... I feel like there's no way I'm not somewhat high on the autism spectrum, and there's no way I don't have ADHD or some very similar condition...
anyways, my question is:
do you think getting admitted into a clinic (where I'll stop having ALL my comforts like my computer) as a treatment for being heavily depressed and anxious, is something acceptable??
Eh, pls #boost my request to #getfedihired, if you could spare two clicks? 🥺
I've been humming and hawing about posting this, it feels strange, something about generational guilt & working class shame & ... but it's either this or start putting my CV through LLMs to include every buzzword on the listing I'm applying to. I haven't been able to stomach that, even though I presume that's a lot of my competition.
I simply can't get to an interview. Historically, I've done three interviews and got the job each time, because I'm a real human being who is friendly and chatty and presents himself sincerely (or, that's my guess, anyway).
In #Ireland with my partner, but we've lived in different places and would move happily. I've a year experience doing an IT support role the last year, but have transitioned to this stuff later than usual.
Before I've done: bartender; bicycle courier for Deliveroo in #Berlin for two years (best job ever); private tutor for five years in #Lyon (mostly piano but also maths, Irish, English, flute, tin whistle); bookies clerk for a short period; a few other odd bits - one highlight was writing reviews for a theatre company.
Oh, very comfortably fluent in #French, pretty fluent in #Irish (my first love), and intermediate #German (which I would love to have a chance to go back speaking and learning).
Tech-wise, it's been mostly on the #Linux / #Emacs / #Lisp side of things. I would happily work on anything that is one or more of challenging, interesting, useful, or moral.
Money doesn't rule me. I want to live with a humane level of comfort, that's all.
CVs and references available, DMs open. Thanks so much for any and all help!