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2 days agoas they say “Great minds want to smash their dicks with hammers”
Grownbravy [they/them]
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Good year to invest in hammers
“America leads the world in Hitting Yourself in the Dick with A Hammer. China is afaid to smash their dicks with a hammer, why is that?”
I realize the game mechanics of Uma Musume are so simple and well designed that you could have the whole game exist as just a text game. So the visual element is all marketing, and so it’s own thing that it can be taken to any direction.
So from Horse Girl Racing from Idol training and performing (which the original game engine was built for) we can then make it about anything, so lets use Political Philosophy
You train your philosopher to amass more adherents to your movement, and every event you train for is something like a debate or something. You collect support cards who can assist you with boosts and skills at random with training, and little events can trigger to give further stat boosts.
Now you’re probably thinking “that actually sounds boring as hell”. You’re right. Lets turn them back to anime girls.
Been watching a youtuber’s video essays on the economy and slowly, very slowly, seeing him chip away at his lib world view to see when it starts to click for him
Also, i’m a weirdo who prefers split keyboards, but i dont know how to progrom
i could use a nice space to talk about keyboard switches for a second.
I think i am a convert to Kailh Box switches. Last year i built my keyboard with a set of Box Whites, and the sensory stimming of rocking and wiggling the keys back and forth made a lot of the keyboards i was using feel awful. but it’s could also be the type of keycaps themselves, my main is using ABS plastic that smoothed out with use so my fingers kinda grip, but the pbt of the of my other keyboard they just kinda slip off. They also click with a very nice SNAP to them.
oh shit, you’re right
if ever there were a time to suddenly develop shame, it’ll be so funny if it happens now.
“bruh, where ya going, we’re all enjoying the land”
“nah i’m good”
It’s been so damn cold. Please stop for a little while
it’s almost annoying how more lib south american leftist are than american leftists, yelling at us to buy guns like i haven’t just lived a week with no heating.
actually no material analysis with them
Something that’s nagged me, is that I would do all of this but every time she comes to me like this, she resets a clock, or it feel like thats
I didnt write all this just for a new mega thread to swallow it whole.
i just gotta off a phone call with my ex again.I dont really know why I want to talk about this with the bearsite in particular, I’m not on it as much as I used to be.
She’s been feeling overwhelmed, crying in her room, i guess a little overextended. Work is taking a lot from her, and I guess some friends came and went in the last few months, and she calls me crying because she knows
- I would answer
- I could talk her down
And she’s right, i set my phone on the charger and saw her name on the call. It sounds like she’s trying to maintain her balance, from the sound of it, dating has not been super fruitful for her, all this stress and more, meanwhile I told her for the last several days our oil furnace has been out. i’ve had to bare the coldest days in many years, and she’s falling apart, the poor thing. She misses me and still wants to see me as a friend, but I’m not around like i had been then. My circumstances arent exactly the best, but who’s are?
She’s saying how she didnt want to be leading me on, sounding like she’s sticking to a decision and I dont know what the right thing to do is other than face the situation. Idk whats best for her, for myself it’s dealing with the present issue that she wants me to help her. And I gladly do it.
It’s upsetting to me how she carried herself like i shouldn’t be forgiving her, like that’s even her judgement to make. We’re all at or exceeding breaking point, some of us just dont have someone who could support them the way they need, and in all honesty i am way more that for her than anyone can be for me. And i dont know nor care right now what the amalgamation of poor, working man horseshit that assembled me to be used to having nothing to rely on nor resources to fix anything.
It’s hurting both of us for sure to still be reaching out to help her calm herself, but i have no heart to abandon her when she calls for me, but i can tell she’s trying not to do the same for me, but i dont ask for that. Or i know it’ll never come anyway.
It’s the fact that this was her decision that makes this sit rough for me. I never said to not rely on me again, but i cannot be there like I used to be. I am not around like that, for anyone. The old relationship was what kept me from locking myself away, but since it just feels like I’ve been gang pressed to a lighthouse for 5 years. I feel like I am in the middle of a mandatory service, called back by the very forces that brought me out there in the first place. Even if you take me back, I have a sentence to complete. I have lost or given up too much to be that person again until I am done here.
I dont even feel right asking her to investigate this impulse. To ask “why do so intimate a thing as help you manage your emotions at a time like this, to pry deeper into what you’re feeling.” I’m trying to accept that it’s over, that you are not who you’ve been to me anymore, but I remain somewhat. To help calm you down was something I did not long after being serious together. That you didnt have anyone else to help was a travesty. To return me to that feels harmful to me somewhat.
Maybe i just think this because I’m still not over you. Maybe this imposed sentence is something that’s meant to occupy me and keep my mind off you. I can tell you all this, i know it hasnt changed anything, like a shut door that cant open again. I am living a hell you want to avoid, but I never asked you to enter into it with me. Maybe i just remind you of that and it hurts you more than anything else. I dont know.
I dont really know why I want to talk about this with the bearsite in particular, I’m not on it as much as I used to be.
She’s been feeling overwhelmed, crying in her room, i guess a little overextended. Work is taking a lot from her, and I guess some friends came and went in the last few months, and she calls me crying because she knows
- I would answer
- I could talk her down
And she’s right, i set my phone on the charger and saw her name on the call. It sounds like she’s trying to maintain her balance, from the sound of it, dating has not been super fruitful for her, all this stress and more, meanwhile I told her for the last several days our oil furnace has been out. i’ve had to bare the coldest days in many years, and she’s falling apart, the poor thing. She misses me and still wants to see me as a friend, but I’m not around like i had been then. My circumstances arent exactly the best, but who’s are?
She’s saying how she didnt want to be leading me on, sounding like she’s sticking to a decision and I dont know what the right thing to do is other than face the situation. Idk whats best for her, for myself it’s dealing with the present issue that she wants me to help her. And I gladly do it.
It’s upsetting to me how she carried herself like i shouldn’t be forgiving her, like that’s even her judgement to make. We’re all at or exceeding breaking point, some of us just dont have someone who could support them the way they need, and in all honesty i am way more that for her than anyone can be for me. And i dont know nor care right now what the amalgamation of poor, working man horseshit that assembled me to be used to having nothing to rely on nor resources to fix anything.
It’s hurting both of us for sure to still be reaching out to help her calm herself, but i have no heart to abandon her when she calls for me, but i can tell she’s trying not to do the same for me, but i dont ask for that. Or i know it’ll never come anyway.
It’s the fact that this was her decision that makes this sit rough for me. I never said to not rely on me again, but i cannot be there like I used to be. I am not around like that, for anyone. The old relationship was what kept me from locking myself away, but since it just feels like I’ve been gang pressed to a lighthouse for 5 years. I feel like I am in the middle of a mandatory service, called back by the very forces that brought me out there in the first place. Even if you take me back, I have a sentence to complete. I have lost or given up too much to be that person again until I am done here.
I dont even feel right asking her to investigate this impulse. To ask “why do so intimate a thing as help you manage your emotions at a time like this, to pry deeper into what you’re feeling.” I’m trying to accept that it’s over, that you are not who you’ve been to me anymore, but I remain somewhat. To help calm you down was something I did not long after being serious together. That you didnt have anyone else to help was a travesty. To return me to that feels harmful to me somewhat.
Maybe i just think this because I’m still not over you. Maybe this imposed sentence is something that’s meant to occupy me and keep my mind off you. I can tell you all this, i know it hasnt changed anything, like a shut door that cant open again. I am living a hell you want to avoid, but I never asked you to enter into it with me. Maybe i just remind you of that and it hurts you more than anything else. I dont know.
6·16 days agoBee’s Basilisk must consume more yurislop
34·16 days agoGoodbye
, you’ll live on in poorly color-corrected lectures and the heart of your family.
oh, i’ve found this one before, but i’m such a control freak i want to build my own. a little out of my depth doing that tho
I still want to run a Lancer game, but i need to find some maps.
it’s consumerism, it’s dumb, but i dont care.
I have finally finished my spare split keyboard and i’ve decided against changing key switches now, because i bought a set of those MT3 keycaps from Drop (and the annoying consumerist thing is that because of tariffs, no one’s restocked anything for this hobby.)
So now i have a nice set of those higher profile keycaps based on old IBM terminals from the 1960s and 70s, they feel extraordinary to type on, my fingers grip them really well so i get a good sense over them like you would nice basketball shoes in a gymnasium, they transform the keyboard entirely for me.
I’m typing on a Ortholinear Split keyboard with a reduced 4x12 layout, and the fun and interesting thing about them is working with QMK, which might have accidentally introduced me to C programming, and after all this work and time, i got probably the best custom layout layers which include all the missing numbers rows, and all the brackets brilliantly laid out, and most importantly for me, a dedicated calculator that i can use one handed on the keyboard!!!
I always hated the layers that would come from Tenkeyless or 60% keyboards because i always felt i could get a better layout for them, and also since i would’ve designed the layout, i’d remember them.
With all this, i can safely say I’m back to my “endgame”. I have two weird little keyboards with keycaps that are strangely inspired by IBM computers terminals.