CPTSD

So I was recently told to try a loving-kindness exercise, and found it very difficult to follow the instructions.

You can’t show any emotion at all about what happened to you. People don’t want you to exist. People want to say call 988 because it lets them pretend you don’t exist.

I was searching for communities on any instance of lemmy that deals with reconnecting with your emotions, or training emotional skills, but I didn’t manage to find anything.

Hi all

I’m a bit anxious right now and my PTSD is kind of triggered right now.

I spoke to my abusive mum recently. She’d said she felt like I didn’t like her, so I thought I’d tell her how I felt, outline what she put me through. I’m not sure if it was the best idea. She apologised but she also kept repeating “I’m only human”. I’m also human, but I can’t imagine ever doing to someone what she did to me. I don’t know. I don’t feel like it’s a valid reason. I’m not sure how to feel. If her only reasoning is that she’s “only human” is it enough? I don’t feel like it is but I know I won’t get anything more from her, and I feel like she expects it to be all good between us now. Would that be enough for you? How do I move on or at least move forward?

What I said in the title \o

Hey everyone,

Just trynna expand my support but not a fan of discord.

Hi there, I made this account today, I’ve always been pretty active in the CPTSD community on reddit, but I plan on leaving reddit entirely. So now I’m wondering if anyone is actually on here or if there’s a different more active place I should check out.

On Thursday, I met with a therapist who ran through the ACES inventory with me during our session.

This is an issue I have, I tend to stick to dating sites as intentions are out lined but saying that I still struggle in my day to day as I think people being nice to me male or female are presenting sexual interest, I was sexualized at a young age hense I have this unhealthy mind set.

Went on a date with someone, caring understanding and diagnosed with cptsd. We had a lot to talk about. Date went on for 8 hours, near the end we entered a very busy restaurant, I started have symptoms of anxiety, hot and cold flushes, heart racing, unable to talk or hold a dialogue, felt so uncomfortable, I randomly said about getting the food to go alluding to going home, I knew what I was saying and the connotations that went with it but couldn’t stop myself. Its the next day and I feel so embarrassed, I continued texting her after the date and spoke to people about what had happened. I’m still dealing with the anxiety but think I stopped dissociating anyway

Other forms of resources would also be appreciated.

Housework has been a longtime struggle for me. Its one of those things that makes overwhelm seem more overwhelming. I have been using a cleaning podcast ~11months. Just throwing it on in and doing what I can when i have the energy to has transformed my confidence in the ability to deal with my space. Even if its just to get started on the essentials. I hope this helps someone

I am experiencing a trigger. The difference is, I have more awareness now. Before my diagnosis, I didn’t understand why I reacted to things the way that I do. I can remind myself to be gentle, slow down and take it easy. Breathe. It WILL pass.

…have you ever not been anxious every single moment of the day?

“Emotional flashbacks are sudden and often prolonged regressions to the overwhelming feeling-states of being an abused/abandoned child. These feelings states can include overwhelming fear, shame, alienation, rage, grief, and depression. They also include unnecessary triggering of our fight/flight instincts.” (Pete Walker)

I was wondering if anyone was present on this community.

This is the community I miss the most from reddit and will probably go back at least to it.

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Also, she mentions that “The Body Keeps the Score” author Bessel van der Kolk was abusive to his employees?! Yikes.

Given how common isolation is with CPTSD, what have been your experiences with socialization?