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I’m sorry for what you are going through. Learning about covert narcissistic parents helped me understand my situation. I see some similarities in your story but I could be wrong. Maybe check some youtube videos on the topic. Not sure if I’m allowed to recommend stuff here, but some videos by Jerry Wise were very revealing to me. I sincerely hope it helps.

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