crosswind [they/them, she/her]

Not that it doesn’t matter whether transition is “right” for someone, but that the idea of it being right or wrong doesn’t exist in any way that can be separated from a person’s satisfaction with the outcome. If someone transitions and that makes their life better, that’s the whole story. There’s no hidden answer waiting to be revealed about whether they were actually “supposed” to transition. Whatever biological comparisons or categorizations could be made about people who transition can only meaningfully be descriptive. They can’t actually separate which people are “meant” to transition.

For a while, that felt like a comforting lie I was telling myself, and I still worried that someday someone was going to prove I wasn’t actually trans and I was wrong to think I was. But with time and experience, I’ve come to accept that all that is literally true.

Transitioning is absolutely a different thing than skateboarding in some ways, but I think the differences that matter are different than the ones you’re worried about. I pressed you with one of the questions I got caught on a few years ago when I was wrestling with things that sound similar to what you’ve been saying. Over time as I’ve worked through my thoughts about being trans, being a person, and being a trans person, the things like this that worried me most at the time feel more and more like they don’t need to be part of how anybody lives their life. I’d enjoy talking about it more if you want to.

Would it mean it’s not right for you? If you had learned to skateboard and that made you happy, would you need a medical test to prove you were meant to be a skateboarder?

The idea of a trans gene or test was really important to me when I was early on in figuring out my gender. I knew it shouldn’t matter, but it still felt like it would be really helpful.

At the time, the idea seemed comforting, but as I worked through my feelings, I’ve found it way more comforting that that doesn’t, and pretty much couldn’t, exist.

Can you be more specific?

Emotion review: Metallic Sadness

It sucks 3/10. It gets three points because I started engaging meaningfully with other emotions so I would have something else to feel.

Feeling a new emotion today. I don’t know what it is, but it’s like sadness with a metallic flavor. It doesn’t act like sadness though.

That is literally the fundamental concept of an ad. What could they possibly do that could be called an ad, but wouldn’t fit that description? You’d need a very creative definition of “influence” or “answer” or “give”

A few years into his term, enough of the board had been replaced with Biden appointees to fire him without any packing, but they still kept him.

honky farm

I used to think that my parents would be the easiest people for me to talk to, and I built up in my head how much more difficult making friends would be, and how I wasn’t ready for that. Eventually I pushed myself to start meeting people anyway, and at first it was really hard, but it got easier over time as I recognized how much the people I met were not like my parents. Now talking to my friends makes it much easier to deal with my parents.

I had been in the closet a long time when I started making friends, but that situation hasn’t changed much since I came out.

This is an awful comment. Don’t post shit like this.

Now that I think about it, that’s a good reason to finally make that my deadname.

After two years it seemed like my mom had almost adjusted to using my pronouns consistently, but now it looks like she’s learned the One Weird Trick where she can just constantly say my name and avoid ever having to use any pronouns for me at all.

Saw my shadow do a happy little half jog today. She looked so cute

There’s a terminal in front of the elevator, a node.

To gain access, you need to input the code " ^ "

This might be the reason, thanks

No grapefruit or medications, and it was five days after injection.

400 pg after 5 days