CatoPosting [they/them, he/him]

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Cake day: September 5th, 2023

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  • Thanks friend,

    What sort of rituals do you mean?

    I have a daily coffee ritual that helps sooth me. Every day I wake up, measure out 18g of beans, set ~370 ml water to boil, spritz the beans with a mist and shake them before hand grinding them, then throw a filter into my brewer, add the ground beans and water and wait 6 minutes while enjoying the aroma. I’m enjoying that cup right now, though part of my ritual was disrupted because I was going to be in a rush this morning, out early to the dentist (note: student dentistry, I ain’t bougie enough for full price work), so I’d premeasured everything. It made it less meditative, but the coffee is still really nice.


  • Eh…I’m pretty sure the diagnosis is correct. The only things that I could find that fit my most dramatic symptoms was MS or a brain tumor and they show up clearly on MRIs. I even knew psychosomatic disorders (what this was called when I was in school) existed…I just never thought it could happen to me. I thought I was too rational, that there was no way it could feel so real that you couldn’t tell it wasn’t authentic. It’s falling for a placebo effect when you know they exist, the gambler’s fallacy even though you know the house always wins.

    Now its the finding treatment for a disorder that no profession really wants to be their purview because it has historically been so impossible to treat because one size really doesn’t fit all. It’s the shattered knowing that I could tell if something is wrong with me that’s one of the worst parts. And not knowing if I’m capable of becoming a parent, hell of even going on a vacation.



  • I saw Christy as a mystery movie [edit: it was fine, better than The Smashing Machine imo but not something I’d intentionally watch] and was totally unaware of the drama. I can’t even imagine getting involved with a project like that, playing a lesbian boxer, and also trying to court chuds. Like…did she think she could bring both sides together or that people wouldn’t notice? She or her PR team are dumb for real. Its like Hillary Clinton still trying the faking an accent similar to the people you’re talking to in the internet era, except Sweeny fucking grew up with it. The mind wobbles.


  • Me too comrade. For a brief time in college I was living in a large family home by myself as the owners had relocated to be nearer to good doctors, and it was so crushingly lonely. That is until I invited a D&D group who had lost their place to play into my abode which somehow turned into them all hanging out there at all hours of the day, all weekend, and occasionally overnight during the week. I loved the feeling of the house being so full. Unfortunately, no one had taught them to care for communal spaces and so it became a mess by the time the owners were returning. At the time I didn’t have the interpersonal skills to manage that conflict, but I think I’d do better given the chance again.















  • I had a friend trying to get disability for a laundry list of problems that left her unable to do much, and the judge ruled against her with an example job of folding sheets and towels at a hotel. No hotel we could find employed a person to do that job alone, nor am I convinced she or anyone could do that job for 8 hours at a time, but still it was enough to get her case dismissed.

    However, it did start a paper trail that helped her win disability several years later in a more progressive district. She now lives in a 6 person polycule, 5 of whom are disabled.