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  • On its own religion arises & develops naturally and, if left alone, is ultimately harmless in and of itself.

    How does religion develop naturally and be left alone when it's inextricably tied to reality, especially when the only societies that have existed for the past several millennia were class societies?

    Also, how do we reconcile materialism and the militant atheism that's been part of the foundation of ML parties with atheism being a bourgeois invention to flatten people into soulless automata?

    I've been having a crisis of faith in dialectical materialism lately, especially the latter part. I've been an atheist for my entire adult life and all I have to show for it is empty comfort and self hatred. I've seen the downright miraculous transformations people have when they re-establish their relationship with God. It's indisputable proof that God exists, that He cares for us, and that the evangelists the reddit atheists would always argue with were right: only a fool says in his heart there is no God. Why should anyone treat the material as primary, let alone all that exists?

    Yet, as far as I can tell, this is incompatible with Marxism-Leninism. Even people who are both religious and committed MLs, like Lady Izdihar, offer explanations that try to reconcile the two that aren't convincing to me.


    Update: Everything past the first two paragraphs was basically a mini-crashout. I've been having my bouts of intense rumination, irrationality, and hopelessness increasingly often. For the most part I've at least had the good sense not to post through it, but I made that mistake when I made this comment. I think I need to get away from social media (even the FOSS kind) for a pretty long time.

    For what it's worth, regarding the "God" question, I find the idea of its existence to be ridiculous if I put in even the tiniest amount of thought about it, but the overwhelming majority of people I have to interact with in real life take it seriously. It gets to the point where I start thinking I must be the wrong one if so many people disagree with me, and the mental stress of trying to jam the square peg of society's belief into the triangular hole of my mind makes me desperately try to convince myself something is true even if I fundamentally cannot believe it.