Hey there,

i haven't posted under this handle for a while. I was around since the last days of the old sub, back when i was still an egg, switched to this account after i realized i'm trans, which jfc has been almost 5 years ago by now. I've come such a long way since then. And i've gone through so many changes. Most of them good ones. Some, idk.

This community absolutely changed the way i post. It also radicalized me, often to the point were i had to deradicalize myself a bit to still be able to interact with normal people without seeming like a totally unhinged person. And i gotta admit, i haven't always acted nicely to others in the years behind me. Some of it was due to the pressure of transitioning, some due to trauma from my youth that has made me a hit and run kinda person when i feel threatened, and yes, some of it has been accquired by being a part of this crowd here and arguing politics online. Maybe you can relate to that, i definitely relate to how you ended up.

I've recently left a local, irl community in bad blood because we had one too many struggle sessions. I have good friends who have my back, and we're building something new as an alternative to the missing stairs shitshow the liberal tone policing tenderqueers are running, and it's gonna be beautiful and true and it will be a home for all the trans girls that are too wild for the petit bourgoise assimilationists who think they can call all the shots. And that's worth it. But still, the vitriol has been flowing a lot and that has earned me actual enemies. Like, i go to the bar and there's people who look at me with hate or with outright panic in their eyes because of things i've said. And that fucking hurts, even when these for the most part aren't the people i care about, and even when i know that i'm all the more respected for speaking up against injustice in other parts of the community. Turns out being an unyielding death dyke makes you a polarizing figure.

What i'm getting at is, being a poster can fuck you up badly. It can change how you relate to people. I look back on some struggle sessions i was involved in here, i don't like what i did there. I've been toxic, i've been heartless. That was worse on hexbear than in places were i knew most people irl, but some of it seeped into how i behaved to the worst libs i know personally. And even tho they probably deserve it, not everybody gets that, and even when people get that, there's a callousness behind all that behavior that i'm not always comfortable with. I think we should both take that as a warning shot, look clearly and honestly at who we are. Look where we need to change, even when it's gradual changes, finetuning if you will.

That isn't why i've been so inactive lately, i'm frankly just not too happy with the direction this site has taken ever since we federated. And when i take that clear, honest look i've talked about at the site in general, i find that being less involved than i used to be is the right choice. But there's lessons i take from all this that will continue to guide my actions, my praxis, the understanding of my purpose in these bitter times.

Thank you and farewell, Nakoichi.

brings out estradiole vial and injection gun

I can make it lesbian.

I hate to inform you that Tom of Finland made some of his first gay experiences with Wehrmacht soldiers during WW2 and that this had a pretty big influence on his uniform kink.

I mean that's a pretty damn high bar to clear, but the score is at least as good as you'd expect.

I love them, but i'd have nothing to wear these with. If you have a flapper dress and some art deco-ish purse, that would look amazing tho.

I didn't make that up on the fly, i have more than once putten it in the "Reason" field when i reported you in the past. Never for anything zionism-related, i must add. We're on the same page on that issue.

Yeah absolutely.

They have a history of covid minimization and being an outspoken swerf and generally never pass a vibe check when they enter discussions in queer spaces on this site. They just can't help but be weird around queer, kinky and poly people. Yes, that's vaguely reactionary, and that only being vague in their reactionary sentiment isn't a problem to you speaks volumes about what this place has become.

Allow the emoji, unban Z, then immediately ban them again for their extended history of being a reactionary piece of shit.

• exempts forced labor in the penal system from the forced labor people are supposed to be free from

• accounts for the bourgeois right to theft known as "property rights" but does not account for the rights to housing, food, healthcare, education etc.

• accounts for freedom of movement, unless you want to enter a country

• accounts for freedom of religion, expression and association, but not for freedom from discrimination

• reproductive freedoms and anything gender-related mysteriously absent entirely

See how little it takes to fully measure the rights of our opressors and completely eclipse the rights only needed by the opressed.

I've been wondering the last few days what to make of Friedrich Merz' announcement of an end to arms exports and i'm honestly not surprised he wasn't serious about it. This fits with my suspicion why he brought it up in the first place.

You see, the CDU is as warmongering and prozionist as German parties get. Like, they're the only ones who are somehow even worse than the Greens in this regard. And while Merz isn't the most outspoken zionist in his party, he's among its most ghoulish and callous members. It is extremely out of character for him to enact an arms embargo against Israel, even a disingenuous and fake one like this. When the news broke, my first hunch was a faint hope that the issue has become too contested, the narratives too shaky, the public opinion too fickle to further go along with the genocide. This hope was premature and naive. What we actually see here is opposition not to the occupation, but to the recent escalation of moving the IOF into Gaza City. And that opposition is not motivated by a newfound respect for the lifes of Palestinians.

It is motivated by anti-Arabian racism.

You see, the CDU had nothing against thousands of Palestinians being murdered every month. They were in complete support of that. What they take objection with is that the latest moves will lead to mass displacement, that they could speed up the genocide to the point were way over a million people are fleeing Gaza. Because that would mean that a sizeable share of them would flee to Germany, which is home to the biggest Palestinian community in Europe. And obstructing immigration, especially of Muslims, as much as possible is a huge priority for the CDU. That's what is behind all this, keeping refugees away.

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He was a chud who targeted the CDC because he blamed vaccines for his long covid symptoms, you're "critically" supporting a fascist to own the libs. And honestly, that's what has been wrong with the site for months, you're all so obsessed with the Bidenists living rent free in your head that half of you are about to turn full Strasserite. This is disgusting, do some self crit asap you reactionary loser.

BTW the result of this is that JK Rowling is now calling for a M&S boycott because they dare to employ a woman that's 6 feet tall

I could just unironically write "so i'm done reading the comic about gay furries for research purposes"

Some people even pronounce it in a way where the p isn't silent.

There's a weird puritan/SWERF streak on this site that's managed to persist for a shockingly long time.

There's a strong overlap with the posters who act really weird any time kink or poly relationships get brought up, and i'm fairly sure some of them have had previous accounts nuked for queerphobia in the past. The Venn diagram between TERFs and SWERFs is almost a circle for a reason.

This isn't about the porn industry's working conditions, it's about evangelical investors from the most reactionary parts of Amerika's deep south using finance megacorporations as a tool for worldwide censorship that operates entirely on puritan ideology. Your reply directly plays into their PR strategy of using a group of SWERFs as a PR shield for that.