from Peregrine,
i live a never ending cycle. i’m currently between the man who knows exactly where God is, and the man who loves exactly where God isn’t. it’s a pendulum. and a hard one to slow down. it bends my brain and i in ways we never knew were possible. we don’t always contemplate like this. but we think there’s more people that feel like we do. like no matter how good the upswing is, there’s always a downswing, never stagnant. friend, i know where you hurt from and i know where you celebrate from. i know what the Jesus hangover feels like. i’m here to tell you it’s ok.
you’re ok.
i swing too.
God still sees us.
sometimes we swing really far, He always chases us down, even when we don’t feel it. no matter the brokenness, the never-ending cycle does see itself through, there is an end, and at that time i get to see Jesus. i endure now because God is faithful to the very end. love your neighbor, don’t be alone in the downswing, Good is coming back. there is more for you, you are so loved <3