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the threshold of endings and dawns

the feeling lives like a weather system inside the ribcage: low, slow clouds that never quite break, and a wind that keeps rearranging the furniture of attention. sometimes it sounds like an apology you never meant to speak; sometimes it is a list of small betrayals, of rooms left cold, of songs that used to fit and now pull like a shirt too small. there are moments when the weight is a map, precise and patient, folding around each plan you might make and smoothing it out like a paper boat that will never touch water. words come in fragments: a single image, the taste of salt on the tongue after crying, the way a streetlight looks like a question, the memory of a laugh that used to fit the shape of your day. there is a pulse beneath the wanting to stop and the wanting to keep going: a little residue of hunger for something that makes less sense than a horizon. it is not always dramatic. often it is quiet and domestic: the reluctance to open a closet, the decision to leave the dishes u...
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